After midnight hallucinations

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When life is pushing all your buttons

When society is driving you to your limits

And when I say society I mean fam, friends, relatives, 
daaamn sometimes even strangers
وقتاش انفرحوا بيك؟

لقيتي خدمة ولا مزال باك يصرف عليك؟

You carve for detachment but some strings are still attached

You can’t detach because those strings gave you life

You do الخاطر لهادا، you do الخاطر لهاذيك

N you wind up without خاطر

but still you feel you're timed

Anytime, anywhere, you’d go off 
in 3, 2, 1 boom

You know you’ve got but two options

Explode on the face of your beloved ones mostly
cuz society only puts obstacles on your way 

Standards to answer to
Expectations, like the way your mother looks at you in your consin's wedding,

 only girls would know what it means

Things heavily put on your shoulder since day one, since your first breath
study, graduate, find a job,  get married, have kids 

beat your bro, beat your sister,

Beat you couzin, beat ولد ولا بنت جيران

As if we are in a competition or something

You know, the traditional Morrocan thinking of pretense
or maybe it's an Arab thing I can't tell
 Or, dear friend, option 2, you explode within

Like a supernova, you crush down everything

Until nothing no longer makes sense

Your choices, your dreams, your thoughts, your regrets, your faith, your life, 

your everything

That you stay, lost in ruins, unable to know from where to begin

You choose solitude and silence and you stay put

Like a black hole, you let nothing out, not even a single sob

Whatever dilemma, whatever desire, whatever fear

Like a cork in a shore, leaving your faith to tides; in, out, out in

Saying yes to life, to death, to happiness, to sorrow, to insanity, to sanity

Saying no to sanity, to insanity, to sorrow, to happiness, to death, to life

Like an orphan, in need of attention, love and understanding, not out of sympathy

You cherish every smile, every moment of joy

Like a toddler, you crawl, you fall, you walk, you stand; you never stop trying

People will think you've changed

but like a caterpillar you've just evolved
only people who've been down that road, would give you credit

damn it, in time of despair
you envy some closed-minded, shallow, hollow people,

cuz the lesser they know the happier they be

true, the struggle is real my friend

Know, you are not the only one
I am down that road,
I am a timed-bomb, a supernova, a black hole, a cork, an orphan, a toddler
I am an evolving caterpillar 

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